Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Very Slow

Dang.  I finally finished chapter 1.  I mean I have enough material in the manuscript for 5 chapters, but I've finally gotten to the point where I am finally happy...completely happy with the way its turning out.  I am a very slow writer!!

I think PMS has a lot to do with it.  When I have it, I don't write.  :(  I don't know why.  Then inspiration strikes like lightning...and last night, I was off writing like a racehorse.

Now I have to refine chapter 2.  :p

I mentioned this to Hubby last night and he was like "Great!  At this rate, you'll be done in 5 years!"  Thanks a lot Hubby.  Heh heh.

I need to set myself on a schedule.

I've been reading Elizabeth George's new writing book and she mentioned that if you want to be published, you need to have talent, discipline and passion.  Pour moi, its the discipline part I need to work on. 

You need bum glue, she says.  Bum is Aussie for ass.  So that's it.  Ass glue, you are being applied to my bum until chapter 2 is completely and utterly brilliant!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Hmm...

Man, I guess its been awhile since I've blogged on this blog.

I thought I didn't need to anymore, that the other blog would be sufficient for blogging. But today I want to blog here. Don't ask me why. Maybe its that time of the month.

So anyways, in regards to writing...having a full time job (which is hella busy) and the kids and the hubby are killing my creative energies. My mom is staying with us for a few weeks as well, and I feel like I have to spend time with her as well (Mom, watch the West Wing with me, the greatest show of all time). Throw in me having to get up at 4:00 am for work, and the writing time is zippo. Zilch. Nada. Sigh.

I've been having problems with the hero, who heretofore was a military guy. I know that romances should steer clear of politics...but reading a lot of mil blogs lately...they are so pro-Bush. It jars my delicate, sheltered, nerdy, bookish, liberal senses. So what is the problem? Why don't I just make Dan a libbie who opposes the war...but still does his duty when called. WHAT'S THE PROBLEM???

My head, that's the problem!!!! Its not gelling!! I am so whining right now. So if he comes back from war as a wounded veteran...does he show signs of post traumatic stress syndrome? I look to the West Wing episode ("Noel", season 2) where Josh is experiencing PTSD...and he kinda "deals" with it in the episode. I'm not sure I want it to be a factor in this whole book. I mean...Dan could have a mild case of it, I guess. But its a pretty serious subject and it takes a long time to recover from (some never do)...I don't just want to leave the impression that the love of a good woman and lotsa sex is the cure to PTSD, which obviously it isn't. But on the other hand, it is a romance. Where is the balance?????

I think I am psyching myself out. I entered that writing contest and won't be hearing back from them until like Sept...so a part of me is still on hold, breathlessly awaiting the validation of my writing self.

Sigh...I'll be glad when the 2 weeks of PMS plus the 5-7 days is over and I can stop playing head games with myself...

BTW, how I feel politically. :)